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Long Distance Relationships

Hello lovelies!

I’ve missed you all so much. But here I am, almost three weeks later, and nearly at the end of January. (oh my gosh) January has been both slow and quick at the same time. I also admit that it has been quite pooey. Three deadlines later, Three all nighters later, and I am incredibly happy to be on the other side! I also got some results back from one of them, and it went so well and I am so so happy with them! Pass the champers!

University results might be going fine and dandy, but you could say my love life is quite rocky. I don’t think anyone can ever prepare you for how difficult a long distance relationship can be.

I’m writing this on a Friday night, alone, whilst all my housemates are out at a party. I’ve pretty much spent the evening in the dark, looking at the ceiling. I feel numb. I feel like I can’t really ‘feel anything anymore’. I’ve forgotten what it feels like to be loved, and that makes me feel sad. 

My sleeping at the moment is awful. Just truly awful. I put this down to starting fluoxetine, but I also believe that my mind is racing far too much at the moment. I get into bed, and I don’t switch off. My heart starts beating far too much, yano like when you’re running? (ha I never run, but you get me) It races. It pounds. My mind doesn’t like me very much. It tells me mean, nasty things. I need to be cuddled next to someone at night, and be told that everything will all be okay.

Long distance relationships are tricky. There is no doubt about it. Hey, if you have managed a LDR for a substantial amount of time, then go you, because you are awesome. 

I’m sure I’m not alone here. I have my questions, I have my doubts. Does he still love me? Does he want to be with me? What if he finds someone new in his new town? Would I even know if he was seeing someone else? Will he forget me? Am I stupid to even be thinking this?

Obviously, all very unhealthy thoughts to have on a daily basis. It drains me, and makes me feel sad. I don’t feel I deserve to feel like this all the time, and it really comes down to trust, and communication. I do trust that he will be faithful, I just think it’s really hard, when it feels like he is so far away, and that he doesn’t really know anything about me at the moment. It is like there is a huge wall between us, and I guess that is when my paranoid voice comes along. We don’t talk or see each other, anywhere near as much as I would like to… but I hope we can work it out.

Long Distance Relationships

Sometimes you need to just put on a face of make up, and a smile, it’s nice to feel pretty sometimes and maybe you can fool someone into thinking you’re really happy.

I still want this to work. I still love him. I hope he feels the same.

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  1. January 23, 2016 / 10:33 am

    I used to feel the same way about my LDR so i juat want to send you a huge hug. I dont know if its just me but after feeling like this for a year or so something just clicked, so I hope it does for you too. I think it helped to have an end goal of when we'd become a 'normal' relationship (this September, I can't wait). But keep going! Talk it through, work out how to make it a bit better in the meantime, and you'll feel more in love than ever at the end of the tunnel

    Lots of hugs!


  2. January 23, 2016 / 11:36 am

    Sending you all the love in the world darling. I still occasionally have these thoughts about my own LDR, but one day that little voice of hope and reality took over and gave me a good kick where I needed one! Tell him all of these thoughts, set yourself little things to look forward to together. I really hope love conquers for you darling!

    Beka. xo | littleworldofbeka

  3. January 23, 2016 / 3:03 pm

    Communication is really the key in a long distance relationship. My husband and I are basically writing messages all day long. I think the important thing is, to really say everything. What you are doing, what you are thinking, what you are wishing for. Send each other many pictures (of yourselves and your surroundings), schedule phone calls and send voice messages. And it's also important to have a shared goal, you both are working towards to (that can just be planning when you will see each other again next time).

  4. January 23, 2016 / 3:13 pm

    LDRs are so hard, I definitely understand what you are going through. What's helped me most through mine is taking one day at a time and remember that I will see him again in however many months, weeks, or days. It's also key to communicate how you are feeling. I like checking up on our relationship and make sure we both feel the same way as we did when we last said "see you later". Everything will work out! <3

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  5. January 23, 2016 / 3:33 pm

    Sending you a big hug Kayleigh!! Hope you're keeping your head up during this time, and don't worry the thoughts you have are completely normal and just shows how much you care about your other half 🙂 Distance can help a little though cause you'll both look forward to seeing each other after such a long time and you'll then realise how it's going to work, just give it some time to all settle down into a routine 🙂 xxx

  6. January 23, 2016 / 5:12 pm

    Perfectly normal thoughts going on here and I know it can be hard but yes setting yourself dates to look forward to meeting up will help keep things there but LDR can work if you both make the effort as it's so easy to say you know what I can't do this but I live for the motto 'if it's meant to be it will be' i'm not saying your relationship isn't going to work though – be strong and keep communicating

    Leanne |

  7. January 23, 2016 / 5:34 pm

    Keep talking and keep being honest. If you have worries, share them, chances are he could be in need of the same reassurance. Plan dates, even if they're Skype dates, a date is a date. Keep talking, keep planning, and keep smiled. The rest will work itself out.

    Sarah 🙂
    Saloca in Wonderland

  8. January 23, 2016 / 5:44 pm

    Organizing life and work as it is is hard enough a long distance relationship adds to that. Sending lots of love and hugs your way and if you need an unbiased ear then just holla xx

  9. January 24, 2016 / 6:56 pm

    I've never been in a LDR like you have, my boyf is 45 min drive and I find that difficult! You are the strongest girl ever and also a huge babe – keep your head up!!

    Robyn /

  10. January 25, 2016 / 2:16 am

    all i will say is that you are a truly amazing young lady who deserves to be loved. Whatever happens hunni,happiness and feeling loved will for certain come your way,hang on in there,you are the best xx

  11. January 28, 2016 / 8:51 pm

    I had a long distance relationship during first year at university when I was in Surrey and my boyfriend was up in Lancaster. It didn't work out but that was just that. I then had to do another long distance with a new boyfriend between London and Cardiff and surprisingly that did work out the whole year, (although we aren't together now) – LDR are incredibly difficult and it takes a lot of effort and commitment but it can truly be worth it and special. But remember to not give up on your own life whilst at university which I know is hard. Make sure to have time to go out with your friends and enjoy life. I know it's extremely difficult but keep your head up and stay strong, as much of a cliche as it is, things will work out if they are meant to and it sounds like you really do love him, so I hope it does xx

  12. March 26, 2016 / 12:59 pm

    If it is meant to be, it definitely will be. Myself and my boyfriend were in a long distance relationship for three and a half years, before we finally moved in together a month or so ago. It takes lots of effort and trust, but it definitely can be done. My sister and her partner were in a long distance relationship too and now they are married with a 3 year old and one on the way! Good luck! 🙂 xxx

    Sarah / Sarah Smiles

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