Wow. What a week.
A week ago I uploaded a post regarding my relationship. Very sadly, we ended up breaking up the same day. It hurt. It still hurts, it stabs, I feel I have lost my entire world.
It’s so strange that before you enter a relationship, you feel so strong, so independent, you can do everything alone, for yourself. But when you leave a relationship, you don’t know what to do yourself, you put all of your time and energy into that one person, and you feel lost. Broken. Sick.
All I know is that there are kind people out there. Really kind.
I was with my lovely friend Emma, in a cafe on University campus last week. It was the day after the break up, and I was an absolute mess. The girl on the table next to us must have heard our conversation, and leant over and passed this note. It was so kind of her, and made me really emotional. It reminds me that there are some seriously lovely people out there.
You guys have all been amazing too. This week has been so painful and hurtful for me, I’ve not really been eating or sleeping at all, just crying, crying my absolute eyes out. All I can think of, is that this week would have been so much more more painful, (I don’t even want to imagine) without all of your wonderful support. You are all kind, lovely, people, who are trying to make me smile, laugh, and just feel beautiful. All I can say is thank you, your support just means the world.
I am struggling with life at the moment, I have lost motivation to do anything. Each day will get better. Just got to let me heart heal.
In terms of *my relationship* for comments sake, I don’t hate him at all, I understand his actions, there isn’t any anger, just sadness. I’ve been so confused all week, but we spoke on the phone last night. It was a hurtful conversation, but it was needed, for the closure. I still love and care about him so much, and he cares about me, but I guess it just wasn’t enough.
I think that is why I can’t stop weeping.
Good riddance January, I won’t miss you. Bring on February, let’s smash it.
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