Sunday, 31 January 2016

LIFESTYLE | A Big BIG Thank You

A Big Thank You

Hello lovelies,

Wow. What a week. 

A week ago I uploaded a post regarding my relationship. Very sadly, we ended up breaking up the same day. It hurt. It still hurts, it stabs, I feel I have lost my entire world. 

It's so strange that before you enter a relationship, you feel so strong, so independent, you can do everything alone, for yourself. But when you leave a relationship, you don't know what to do yourself, you put all of your time and energy into that one person, and you feel lost. Broken. Sick.

All I know is that there are kind people out there. Really kind. 

A Big Thank You

I was with my lovely friend Emma, in a cafe on University campus last week. It was the day after the break up, and I was an absolute mess. The girl on the table next to us must have heard our conversation, and leant over and passed this note. It was so kind of her, and made me really emotional. It reminds me that there are some seriously lovely people out there. 

You guys have all been amazing too. This week has been so painful and hurtful for me, I've not really been eating or sleeping at all, just crying, crying my absolute eyes out. All I can think of, is that this week would have been so much more more painful, (I don't even want to imagine) without all of your wonderful support. You are all kind, lovely, people, who are trying to make me smile, laugh, and just feel beautiful. All I can say is thank you, your support just means the world. 

I am struggling with life at the moment, I have lost motivation to do anything. Each day will get better. Just got to let me heart heal. 

In terms of *my relationship* for comments sake, I don't hate him at all, I understand his actions, there isn't any anger, just sadness. I've been so confused all week, but we spoke on the phone last night. It was a hurtful conversation, but it was needed, for the closure. I still love and care about him so much, and he cares about me, but I guess it just wasn't enough. 

I think that is why I can't stop weeping. 

Good riddance January, I won't miss you. Bring on February, let's smash it.
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19 comments

  1. I've only just found out I'm sorry :( but that note from the girl is so lovely and very true you are a lovely sweet beautiful girl

    I know it hurts now and you feel like no one will ever be the same but trust me you'll start to pick yourself up again and become all independent and loving life just takes time

    Be strong

    Leanne | www.oohsimplething.blogspot.co.uk


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  2. Girl, I broke up with my boyfriend of 5 and a bit years on New Years Eve as I was getting ready to go to his house to celebrate... it was totally unexpected and it was the worst pain I've ever felt. But I can HONESTLY hand on heart tell you that it does get easier every single day. It's only been one month for me but even now I feel far better than I did at the start! Keep busy, don't dwell on the past and try and see the positives that have done/could arise from this situation! Chin up, lovely x

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  3. I don't quite know what to say other than that I'm always here if you ever need a rant or just someone to talk to. I can't imagine what you're going through but everyone is supporting you because you're such a lovely person and we all hate to see you upset. I wouldn't worry about the not eating and all that, it'll all come back eventually and you'll be a stronger woman after all of this! I'm sending lots of love your way! x

    Jodie // Jodie Loue

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  4. oh sweetie!!!! I hope your heart can heal and you can come out the other side even more epic-ly awesome than you are right now! Even though right now despite all the tears, you're pretty darn amazingly awesome all the same!!!! YEAH BABY!! xoxoxoxo

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  5. Ah chick, I've been following your updates on Twitter and wishing you all the very best. I broke up with my boyfriend of 4 years over Christmas and he proper fucked me over on New Years Eve - I was devastated and in the worst place I've been for a long time. But about a month on, and I'm starting to feel so much more like myself. Like more myself than I did when I was with him. And you will too. The note from the girl in the library is so, so cute. You're amazing and gorgeous and strong and you will come out of this just fine, even though it probably doesn't feel like that right now. Look after yourself and if you ever want to chat - I'm just a message away :}

    N xxx

    Lovelaughslipstick x

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  6. I love you so so so much and I wish I could make all this pain just totally go away :( For now all I can do is promise you that it WILL. Slowly but surely it really will. And you'll be okay. You are so wonderful and beautiful and amazing, I really hope you know that. <3 Here if you need ANYTHING, LITERALLY ANYTHING. I'm always awake! Msg me on Twitter, whatsapp, whatever xxxx

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    1. She really is too hun. Always awake I mean! :) The blogger community is a truly wonderful lot. I love how loving & supportive everyone is. Big hugs xxxx

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  7. Aw poppet, I feel your pain. But I also feel your strength and that is the thing to focus on. My boyfriend of a year and a half broke up with me on the phone over my lunch break at work. We were planning to move in together and we'd discussed marriage and kids. It broke me into a million pieces and we didn't even end on a happy note. I honestly believed I would never heal from it and although I still carry my broken heart with me each day 8 months on, I have healed and continue to heal in a way I didn't think was possible.
    I wrote a post on how to deal with a break up the other week and it was very healing to write actually. I hope it might be healing to read to the right person.

    You'll recover, heal and come out stronger than you ever were before. I promise. You're beautiful and clever and its time to put all your energy in to loving yourself and your world.
    We don't know each other but I am here if you need a chat or anything at all.
    baldwina144@gmail.com

    Stay strong lovely xx

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  8. Oh Kayleigh, I'm so sorry to hear about your break-up :( I went through the same thing a couple of years ago (complete with the whole long distance thing) so I understand how shitty it is. Sending you lots and lots of love, and if you ever need someone to chat to then please email me (beth.toasty@gmail.com) - I learnt from my own experience that talking helps a lot (although if you wanna stay in bed and eat everything and cry, then do it!) I'm glad you have such sweet people around you, the note is so lovely. Breathe, you can get through this ♥ xx

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  9. So sorry to hear about your relationship. Can't imagine how you must be feeling. Sending you big hugs x

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  10. Oh god girl - sorry to hear it. But onwards and upwards hey? You've got to focus on things that make you happy.

    can't get over that note, what a lovely person!

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  11. I don't even know what to say Kayleigh! But all I can say is that we're all here to support you even though you probably feel really shitty! Sending lots of love your way xoxo

    Hannah at WRITTEN BY HANNAH

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  12. What a lovely thing for that girl to do, I wish I could be of some help. I hope you start feeling better soon I know it's all well and good me saying that but it will be ok. It's fine to cry it out and don't feel as if you have to apologise for being upset, sending love and hugs your way xxx

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  13. I'm so sorry to hear that, I know exactly how you must be feeling right now and it truly sucks. It will get better though, I know you're probably sick of hearing that but it will, just give yourself time. Allow yourself time to mourn your relationship, stay in bed (where possible), eat all the pizza, chocolate, ice cream you like, don't wash your hair if you don't feel like it, watch movies that will make you laugh and cry and don't leave your little nest until you feel ready to. Sending lots of love. xx

    www.just-charlotte.com

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  14. Just read this Kayleigh, so sorry to hear this. Breakups are never easy. I hope you're doing ok lovely. Thinking of you and sending lots of love. I always try to think like this... God took away the something good in your life because he's about to send you the great... Who knows what's around the corner. You're such a special girl and you deserve all the happiness in the world. I know I'm only an 'online' friend but know that I'm here if you ever need anything if only even someone to chat to. Lots of love xxxx

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  15. I was ready to comment on you post about the relationship but then i found this!!Im really sorry!!It's only fair and normal to feel sad,breakouts are painful!!I suggest to sleep as much as you can,at least that was what i did ! Also maybe you can't see it right now,but i strongly believe that everything happen for a reason!!Wish you the best and be smiley again as soon as possible <3
    xoxo Afrodite ~ BubblyBeauty

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  16. Everything will be okay!just hang in there!hugs!if you wanna feel better https://kovla.com/blog/10-secrets-to-make-long-distance-relationship-work/ check out my secrets on LDR!its very useful!

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  17. Im really sorry to hear about your relationship, I hope you start feeling better soon! I always go by ' everything happens for a reason' so keep that in your mind!

    Elizabeth - https://diaryofagirl10.blogspot.com/

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