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Today’s post is one of those kind of rambly ones, focusing on a question that I ask myself a lot, it is constantly on my mind… Why do we worry? (Shall we see how many times I say the word worry in this post, I have a feeling it will be a lot…)
Now, I know it is in fact an extremely normal human mind process, but where does it cross the line? Everybody worries, they are lying if they say otherwise. But why do some people worry more than others?
Why do I worry about absolutely everything in life, yet so many other people appear so so care free.
People that don’t have the ‘worrysome’ problem, also described as anxiety, just don’t quite understand. They may just tell you *to stop worrying* but that just doesn’t really work does it? It is like telling someone to not think of a cute kitten, and then the mind will instantly think of a cute kitten. (awwwwh kittens) How often do people question ‘why’ you are worrying? Probably not all that often, because that can be seen as an effort, they could be getting themselves into a really long ramble that they perhaps don’t really want to listen to, they may have their own life problems.
I know that if someone asks why I am worrying I could quite literally talk for days. But what people may not understand is that just talking REALLY REALLY helps. So you hold on really tight to those people that question why.
What Do I Worry About?
Pretty much everything. Not quite. But seriously a lot of things……
– General Crime
– Under Performing In Employment
– Losing My Senses
– Friendships and Relationships
– Disease and Dying
– The Unknown
A pretty standard list that I am sure a lot of people worry about, but the CONSTANT worrying is just so so so so so so draining and exhausting and it is just so….
There is nothing productive about worrying. It pretty much sucks away all of your time. Quite a lot of the time I like to have a nap (three hour sleep) whenever I am feeling particularly anxious, and that takes up a lot of time. As much as I say that ‘worrying is a waste of time’ I still JUST CAN’T stop, even if it is what I want the most in life right now.
I question my life choices far too much… WHAT IF I do this, and then this happens. The responsibility I feel for my actions and anything that happens to me is just ridiculous. And notice how the majority of my worries are in the future / also may not even happen. So why?
I want to live in the present, and enjoy the life I am CURRENTLY living, no worrying about what the future holds, because what happens is just what happens. To enjoy those beautiful things in life…. Feel the wind through my hair, listen to the birds, inhale the crisp air and freshly cut grass. Feel the sun on my skin (when it is ever out, Leeds sort it out) tickle my tastebuds with all things delicious, sightsee all the beauty that is out there, capture it, live it.
I most definitely want to live a very fulfilling life and endless worrying about it now, will not do anything good, nor productive. As usual I want to end with my favourite quote “Don’t worry about the things that MIGHT happen, concentrate on the things that ARE happening”
Hope you enjoyed my little ramble lovelies, I will be dead impressed if any of you made it to the end! Can you relate to anything in this post? You might also like my 10 Things To Do When Feeling Anxious Post.
Catch you soon – Lots of Love,